Laying Down the Hard
Insert yours here.
We all have the hard stuff. Sometimes I wonder why it has to be this hard. I try to figure out what I’m doing wrong and how to fix it. I am not the only one to wonder and try to figure out how to connect all the dots. In Luke chapter 2 we can see that Mary wondered and puzzled through the things she was living through too.
Luke 2:19 “But Mary treasured all these things, giving careful thought to them and pondering them in her heart.”
Mary had just lived through being visited by angels and a miracle pregnancy but I get the vibe that she didn’t quite get what she was living through. I am sure she was so immersed in her own story it was hard to grasp the bigger picture. Even with direct visits from God and angels she was still questioning and wondering and mulling about all the events unfolding around her. Amazed at what she was living through. Trying to figure out what was going on with these shepherds and all they shared with her after giving birth in a stable.
I didn’t think parenting would look and feel like a war zone. But it isn’t about my parenting experience. It is about giving a baby family and stopping generational trauma.
I’m sure you didn’t expect your hard thing to look the way it does. But I reckon to bet it isn’t really about how it effects you. There is a bigger picture.
We are egotistical humans and we make it all about “me.” But we are just supporting actors. I need to stop focusing on me and focus on Him. I don’t have a good grasp on what God is doing through me because I am so micro-focused on myself that I am missing the bigger picture.
Lord, help me to focus less on myself and more on YOU. Help me to live victoriously and not as a victim. I lay it all at the foot of the cross. My questions. My fears. My shortcomings. My baby girl. Fill me with your joy and show me what You are doing so I can focus on You and not all the ways my involvement is hard and inconvenient. Be with everyone who reads this blog. Help them to lay their hard at your feet. Help them to focus on you.
This truth...the hard stuff is not the bigger picture, it is not about how it effects me, my war zone is not about me.
Thank you for listening as He speaks to you, and for sharing. It is wonderful to be reminded that I am not alone in my struggles.